Clarity.

Why is it that in moments like these, while I'm sitting at my computer at 2 am, things about life seem the most clear? Perhaps it's the fatigue that slowly takes over your brain, or the lack of concentration. I have a sneaky feeling that when I read this later today, it's going to sound naive and stupid, but I'm writing it anyway.

Everything seems crystal clear; and there are no problems in this moment. I know it's one of those fleeting moments where in about ten minutes, I'm going to go back to being that apathetic cynic who cares about nothing and no one, but I'm going to make the best of the next ten minutes.

You know you're getting older when you can see how much you've grown and matured in the past two years. The silly things that once worried me no longer pass my mind in the duration of a day, or even a week or a month. When I don't get enough sleep now, it's because I'm trying to live life and not waste a second, where as, previously, I lost sleep thinking about getting a guy and keeping a guy. Everything seems so clear to me now, I don't know how I didn't see it like this before.

Time is a transient being that penetrates our lives; not caring for it seems to be what truly living life is all about. Doing something on a whim and taking chances even when time does not seem to permit them are moments in life that seem to stand out the most. People get so caught up in what they are supposed to do that they often lose sight of what they are not "supposed" to do. When something does not go as planned in everyone's little electronic PDA, they go to great lengths to try and modify it so that it fits into their life's plan. That is no life; life is letting things happen as they should, "roll with the punches", and change your plans as things happen.

Maybe this is too cliche to make any real sense, but I guess, as long as I keep in mind that nothing in life is certain, nothing could ever really go "wrong". My outlook on life would greatly improve, I assume...